Hello! After so many years of fantasizing about books and YouTube channels, I’ve decided it’s time to take the leap! It’s both exciting and terrifying. I’m filled with hopeful anticipation but also massive self doubt. However, I’m staring down 40 in a little over a month and have four little people depending on me: so I am determined to give this my best shot.
To put it simply: life did not go to plan. Can any of you relate? It didn’t go to plan and there is grief in that realization. However, I’ve learned so much in the process of arriving here, and reconnecting with myself, who unfortunately, was lost in that downward spiral. In rediscovering my identity, it became clear to me that not everything has changed: I’m still me. The person I’ve always wanted to become still exists in the most hopeful corners of my mind, and as I enter a new decade, as well as this new chapter of my life, I desperately want to become her. Instead of hiding until everything is perfect, I’ve decided to embrace the messiness. I’ll write exhausted, with four children underfoot. I’ll make lifestyle content even if I don’t look the way I did 20 years ago. I’ll discuss mental health even on days when mine is not at its best.
If any of you can relate, if any of this appeals to you, I hope you’ll follow along as I figure all of this out. I think it’s going to be a hell of a ride. Welcome!
Juliet de Havilland 